It's Wednesday!

So, I was going through old emails the other day, and I came across one that I wrote to Jeff about 2 years ago. Half way through the email, I had to go back to the top and see who I was writing to, because everything I was saying, I could be saying to Brad today. I think that is a sign.

Then, I was reading another email and the following phrases jumped out at me: (I take this as another sign.)

* No man is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

* Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

* The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

* Don't waste your time on a man who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

* Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

* Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

* There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

* Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

* Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

Today is Wednesday - our designated "realtionship day." So, we'll see if he follows through on a date or a phone call. I doubt it. His word is pretty much shit to me now. I feel sorry for him, that no one cares enough about him to tell him the best thing in life is right in front of him and he's tossing it away. He may not regret it now, but when he's 40 and lonely, he may just want these days back to relive and be better.

Who knows. All I know is that I want a man who is happy to be with me, and who wants to know how I am and what I'm doing because he truly cares and is interested in me. I don't think that's so much to ask for. I don't think at this point I'll ever find it, but as long as I have hope, I may still find the man of my dreams when I'm 80 and in a nursing home, blind, deaf and in a wheelchair. But at least I could possible find it.